As you can see from the previous post, it's enough said how much school suckzxzxzxzxzx for the past week. I'll swamped with nothing but sore muscles from the resumed training and fatigue from school projects. Woes of a business student, I cannot wait to breathe stress-free air.

This week had been mentally challenged for me, firstly, just on the day of submission of french assignment, my elocker was faulty and i couldn't retrieve my stuffs, luckily i got to hand it up in time. & then, it was when we were doing last minute work in the lab, all computers shut down due to maintenance and all our unsaved data were gone. okay, this suck i know. Guess I gotta take things in my stride.

I just lost my voice, and now i got to worry how am i going to present the project tomorrow!

i miss them quite alot.

Take care, children and keep safe!

SCHOOOOOOOL SUCKZXZXZXZXZXZXZXZXXXXX!

god knows i want to break freeeeeeee.
:(

Haven't been doing much lately, yesterday the boyfriend booked out, so i tagged along with the family and went to pick him up. Saw us having lunch at xinwang after that, and loads of army stories to hear from him.

but i was pleased to see him after 2 long weeks, he's going to have a short break soon which means longer weekends, which also equals to spending more time with him.
& i think boyfriend lost some weight, and definitely becomes more defined in terms of his muscles and all! :) better not mess around with him, because he's even more rugged and powerful now. and probably after the entire bmt, he can pin me down with his little finger. (ugh!)

we wanted to catch dark knight but everywhere was full, so we left for nick's chalet earlier.

oh well, that was about all.
our initial plan of catching dark knight in the noon is being cancel again! boyfriend decided to drop the idea and relax around.
so i'm off to meet him to buy his snacks before sending him back to the HELL-HOLE island! booo.

photos are with nick, i promise to show you the botak boy soon! :)
he's adorable times 134757483820.

I certainly miss those days back in school. From overseas field trip to school outings, from how we ran hard for cross country to how we put in efforts during sports day just to bring glory to own houses, from prelims to o-levels, from textbook to ten-yr series, from biology practicals to chemistry practicals, (i hate physics so forget it!) dressing up for racial harmony as a whole, putting all our might on greens events just to win back the certificate on the wall, and how we graduated as a class. & now everybody's on their own.

Change is inevitable especially when you go to Secondary School & tries to be cool, you wanna be stylo milo.

To think of it, it tickles my balls. I've been through it & been there so you can imagine what a loser I was last time but one day, I'll visit those schools I've studied when I'm a successful person in life. I've been through years of education which unfortunately haven't done me any justice. Just look at me now! And it'll be interesting to meet up with friends 10 years down the road, to see how they've actually metamorphosed. For me, I'll probably be a nun in the China mountains to atone for nefarious deeds I've committed all my life. how does that sounds?

how have you people been?

M for Mundane

cool stuff, i want to go there one day!

So much for convincing myself, it was a tough time dealing with school now especially when it's like a load of 10000kg is thrown for you to dash up the fucking hill, & instead of being fit & steady, you complain that you're lacking of stamina, lacking behind people. I swear, each time when school ends, I can't help but be so happy to pack my bag the fastest and wanting to punch the air.

Now, it's the period of mad dashing. & it's this period of time, you can see the true colours of your friends. I'm not referring to my matties who produced good work and fought with me but okay, call me a random.

25july- EFMA ICA III / ICT lab test.

28july- Finance ICA III

29july- French submission

31july- CRM report submission/presentation

5aug- French role play. (@$!%^&*(!)

8aug- ICT final proj/presentation

now you understand?

No time for drags, it's just time to buck up & get a shove up my asssss. & it's going to be just the books and me.

Days are typical, night spent are mundane. I've been infected with a disease called, Laziness. It's always home i want to head after school, i've lost interest in everything, practically everything. I've stopped going for tennis for a week, breaking promises to meet up with some friends, shopping, even going for movies, i rejected. Whats wrong with me? Sometimes i just want to hide in my sheets and sleep all i can.

I spent my night reading Songs Of the Humpback Whale. It's disturbing not to finish the novel when I'm already half through it. I can't help but feel a sense of satisfaction after I'm done with the book. It's all about an expert using humpback whales across the ocean to track for his wife, hoping to see the world and his love ones.

In any case, I suspect I do suffer from a deprivary of childhood. How I actually get excited watching cartoons in the morning on Kids Central today because it dawned on me how much time I spent on the bed in the morning than working on my childhood deprivary. I was on the high cereal notion&watching cartoons. Like since young, I've always wanted to marry Peter Pan and how TinkerBell could be my bridesmaid(perhaps she's too small to lift my dress?)

REST ASSURE FOLKS, I'M ALL RIGHT. I just need to shut my curtains&do a little snoozing to get my sense back before I give any good god-damn about anything.

I'm going for a run later. (:

Ronald says,

better days are sunsets away.

Today's dinner at Swensen was bad.

The gross and nauseating cheese stix makes me wanna puke all my dinner out.

& their so called next-big-thing smoked duck pizza was pure godawful, not pure indulgence. ugh!

You know, i still love sales even though the previous mango sale gives me complete headache, I dare not even eye on any piece of clothings in there not because they're all past seasons but because the shoppers in there looked like they're about to hurl each other with whatever objects if the piece of cloth they're eyeing on get snatched. You know in sales sometimes, the bitch in yourself scares you so no matter how mature you are, you'll smack the person if she snatches your favourite piece of top. It's like seeing myself slapping a girl because she snatches my boyfriend. That's how serious sales can get.

Having the thought of upcoming presentation, and deciding not to be sloppy in formal attire anymore, i got my formal pants from Zara yesterday and another pair of black heels just now.
I have added more stuffs to the shopping list, i'm serious in going back Warehouse to get the pants okay!

Yesterday wasn't my day. I'm down with some tough luck with the cabs.
I thought my time shows 9am already, so the peak period is over isn't it! guess what, the cab shows 8:59am, and because it's only by just one minute, i have to pay those additional charges! @#$!%%^&*
and then in the night, because it was pretty late already, so i decided to hail a cab. & this f lady in her mid-thirties went to my front and took my cab. I got so disgusted, madness times 23456839.

You know sometimes i don't like not getting what I want. It angers me, if the things I want are being snatched away and I can't lay my hands on. But why does others get it while I don't? I don't see why I can't fight for the things I want, even if it means losing my dignity. I don't see why things can't go the way I want when I mean no harm and want everything for the best. Not getting the things you want is like being deprived of it.

I shout, SIX MORE DAYS yo! :)

Just when i've decided to chill out with S for the rest of the night, the phone call literally made me changed my mind.
& here i am, back home, praying, hoping your texts come in and then heading to bed soon.
Why is time passing so slowly and at a snail's pace now?

(AIYO)
tell me how not to worry for the rest of the night! tsk.

I'm really busy this week, and to your contray belief, i'm still very much ALIVE. (:

It is a Thursday night in July, and I'm lying in bed in my extra huge tennis shirt typing a whole chunk of junk away in my notebook. What I am doing is totally dated, hoping it will awake me. I'm constantly haunting myself with reminders that I need to do this and that, attend this and that. My mind is packed with all the neon coloured post-it stickers. Furthur more, exams are just in a month time! rawr.

Weekends are just sleeping in late, and without the boyfriend's accompany.
But still, there's the younger sister who kept me energetic and alive, who went shopping and eating with me. (:
What else more? & did i tell you something, i love my new buys lately!

On monday, school was insanely exhausting and busy yet with a little fun induced in it. We, the awesome trio skipped lectures to prepare our role play for law. It was all last minute work because the three of us were really screwy and we slack whenever we have time! However, we managed to complete all the editing within 3 hours which was incredibly unexpected. Cheers to them! More to come, let's work hard ogays!

Let's see, other days were simply projects after projects. No more procrastination, because if i don't get my work done by next week, i will probably get royally screw.

Yesterday saw me and Yenny went to L's place for our hair cut, and we did something SILLY on impulse. Oh well, let's not talk about it or else the witch will corrupt me with her IMBAL language, or i should put in this way, an ostrich ran me down while I was crossing the street. nye haha! you might not get me huh. Whatever it is, my hair fucking stinks now. *insert sighs.

Saw our craziness today in school. We went to disturb this fella who indirectly harassed J few weeks ago. We bumped into him when we were on our way out to school. So as usual, we walked past him and didn't give a shit about him. but not today, with the right timing, he went into a handicapped toilet. I merely suggested to give him a lesson by switching off his lights when he was in the toilet, i swear it was just a suggestion, but guess what Yenny did. She reversed and went to off his lights before we ran down the corridor like mad. We acted real cool after that. Jeees. We should have waited for awhile before switching off the lights, he would probably screamed like a puss in the toilet and wet his pants? HA HA!

Today, was for us to distress. School ended early, so we went to tann, swim and do sauna. I swear at the point when i was doing sauna, i was falling into sleep. Life has been awesome, really. With the usuals and family around you, enough said! :) not forgetting pearl with milk tea that provides satisfaction!

but for now, n73 is giving me problems times 44462149506261749!

I've got a lot of things on my mind.

To do list.
1) Due to increase of pocket money, i've decided to save 3/4 of allowance and open a new bank account on my own. 2) Register for BTT. 3) Go ikea buy buy buy! 4) Contact coach E. 5) Sign up for aerobic class. 6) Get formal skirt for next presentation. 7) Hit the gym with T & L after school twice/thrice per week.

I want to go kayak, any takers with me!?

p/s: i miss the boyfriend like !@#&*^!

i've updated my ipod, gees! check it out okay,

i love Secondhand Serenade yo!

& she's my idol.

LET'S RUN THE SHOW :D

it's not what you leave behind

it's what you'll gain in the days ahead.

Can i say clearly that, unless these silly realise that their waking up at 5am and having meals at a canteen isn't going to happen during war(during war they fight all day and all night long, go days without food, hide all over the place and don't have bunks to live in) they are just purely wasting time!

Is it so difficult for them to accept that one nuclear bomb is going to wipe out the entire nation when the war really comes! but oh wells. i'm feeling damn gay now with all the weird feelings inside me. I thought i will be so oblivious to the fact he's not around, but now. I'm not as strong as what all of you made me out to be. I'm very flimsy. It's sad but true, we're not as independent as we thought we are. We all need someone to be there for us, because we're human afterall and loneliess is never nice. I miss him, his smell. (how siol! it's only the first day. wth! )

No more knuckling of fists, folding stars, snatching the remote control, hardcore pillow fights, wrestling and see who knocks out first, no more jerking when you sleep, movies, stayovers, the xoxo diary, laughing at each other, taking evening strolls and so much more.

Noon was at deport room for some errands, then we caught Hellboy at vivo before dinner at no signboard with the aunties and family as some farewell dinner. It was more than awesome with all the stories told, somehow i feel excited for the boyfriend too!

Life's gonna have a slight change from tomorrow onwards, and i'm on my own for the next two weeks.
It's about time. but i know my friends will be the pillar of support for this period of time. (:

Yen Fenn ❤ says: I LEND U MY SHOULDER

it's gonna be tough but well, let's hang on!
good luck to the boyfriend.

till then..

It feels like just yesterday when the boyfriend receives the enlistment letter, and time flies so fucking fast, in just roughly 24 hours time, we'll be sending him off. ):
Tuesday night saw us gathering at Cartel for sending Zy off to tekong. That fella went to shave his hair off before we could even take a nice and proper photo with him! well, i hope he's doing good and hopefully things will go all smooth for him. (:
Other days were basically spending as much time with the boyfriend as possible, and rushing the deadlines for projects. & oh ya, my laptop finally came. *winks.

Today, saw the boyfriend and me went on a date. Nice dinner and of course the 30mins boat ride from esplanade to the clarke quay. With him around, he will give you the highest level of comfort as well as the highest level of annoyance. & he's a pussy enough for not sitting the g-max with me. (is that what you people called? the g-max?)

It's kind of weird to be saying this, but all of us sure do have an emotional attachment to someone/something. I hate to say this but yes, I have an emotional attachment to a whole load of things especially humans. I always thought myself to be very independent and can survive without anyone or anything but I know that if someone of great importance were to leave me now, I would have a hard time adapting to a life where I'll be left alone to fend for myself.

Speaking of comfort level between my boyfriend and I, trust has to be one of it. Nobody promised relationships are always a bed of roses. I bet he can never read me like a book and it's hard to fathom a human's heart sometimes. If you ask me what I would like to do with my boyfriend, I'd like to dissect his heart and see if his love is pumping that strongly, and steadily for me. I might like to dissect his brains to read what he's thinking to understand him better.

It's so hard for me to continue staying mad at him sometimes because his chest would be the only place I want to run to, lay my head there and seek a hug from him. (that explains why we don't fight.)

I don't understand why I love to play things cool and pretend I don't care when every pores on my body are giving a damn so much that he's leaving for NS soon. Sometimes, I just want to make myself look and sound good. =/

As cliche as it might sound, nothing makes me want him more than anything else.

xoxo

S.

I felt sorry for myself. For not having enough beauty sleep just to study for a module which i don't like at all, and apparently, the computing module doesn't seem to help us in any ways, be it now or in the future, maybe yes in the future, i couldn't forsee. but for now, __ ICT.

French is over, i can now have my peace of mind for the moment.
I could barely wait for the arrival of the weekends. I've been consumed completely by stress and fatigue. I have insufficient sleep everyday and everything seemed to be stuffed under my belt for me to accomplish. My wails are probably redundant, not like anyone's gonna care. Besides, nobody can understand my screaming desperation to elude from this shithole of stress and my licks for WEEKENDS.

My nose is like a leaking pipe now, my throat is as sore as the ba-lu-ku on my back, my fever just seeped some brain cells from me, and the most annoying thing is i failed to load mozilla on my old laptop which means i can only talk to people on msn. I'm not used to dad's one. &i got no fucking idea how long the laptop is going to reach me.

I skipped class on thursday and went to tennis. I freaking spent a horrendous amount of money on cab, i should slap myself and really start eating on carrot sticks. Maybe then i will feel better. Other days were spent with the boyfriend, and the usuals, movies, good food and of course keeping myself busy with a lot of gossips. (:
The other day, i replaced boyfriend's Swatch with this o-biang kookooo black army watch, i think it's cute on him and i want t get one for myself too! i think he's all ready to go. o-botak yo!

the soon-to-be army boyfriend.

Today, we were all so knackered after studying for the test. So we skipped lecture and slacked our ass out at the stadium for three hours. I had my nap, while the other two were oggling at some guys on the track.

i've got more visuals at joey's! :)

Sk blocked me on msn because he said my picture's too hot for him to resist! Y said i looked slutttttty down there. The boyfriend said, i looked cute down there. Joey says: "oh the slouchy girl!"

I say, i look fat down there. ):

I've got a bbq tomorrow, and i will be back with more visuals.

goodnight!