I intended to sleep till the next morning without even bothering dinner or giving a fucking fly about things around me but apparently, sleep fails me. Some issues are enough to snatch sleep away from me. And I'm sitting right in front of the computer, feeling like I'm floating in mid-air and floating through realism and non-realism.

My thoughts are all fuzzy and all I see in my mind are random words floating around, awaiting a sorting machine to arrange them in the way I want them to be. As a result of all the fuzziness, I'm having a hell of a time even trying to start on the second section of my french.

I realise that things have a way of working in the world. What goes around, comes around and kicks you in the ass and sends you hurling to the other side of the room. Then, you mutter and curse and wish that you should never have done all those things. Either that or you just bash yourself for being so stupid. Right?

How was your weekends? Mine was mundane like anything, parents not home, siblings either playing on their games or slamming their drums away. Picnic was canceled, french wasn't done, finance not touched, law not yet inspired, & it's the beginning of the busy term with 5 projects waiting for us to meet the deadline. Hang on, people!
I need plently of lucks for french on tuesday, god bless me please. I hope i can get it through successfully without any tongue tied and forgetting words.

I received the warning letter via email, which means the letter to my house is on its way. I better react faster than mum or i will probably earn a series of nagging or even deduction of allowance. sheeeez.

The ulcer in my mouth had forbid me to talk much, i should do like what Y told me to, " POUR SALT LA! "
knnn, pain leh okay.

oh ya, i've added new songs to my ipod. (:

disgusting thoughts when i saw this!

and this is for annaker!

I think i make such a lousy girlfriend sometimes. The reason why is because I might appear as a strong person outside, someone who'll never cry over things but deep inside me, I'm as fragile as a thin glass. I might break anytime and the facade is an appearance to protect myself from getting hurt and bullied. somethings are better when they're left unsaid.

Let's study harder, kayak harder, tennis harder, play hardest and eat like there's no tomorrow.
let's go! :)

All out of all, materialistic fulfillment is still the one that brings a smile on my face and not anything else.
To be frank, I haven't been shopping decently for the longest time which is quite unbelievable but i swearrrrrrr.

My brother's sweet enough to drive me to Wheelock in the evening to meet the two Ys.
& yes, i've got myself another pair of pumps from Zara. I love the two Ys, because they never failed to cheer my day on and make me forget about those unhappiness inside me. We talked so much about our latest love interest(ahhh, not really. just some random new dudes) & laughed like mad beings who ever existed. The laughter would never ceased to brighten up my days & of course, the gossips. (:
After that, i went to Paradiz to meet my brother, and we went home together.

I want to buy the Agnes B bag. okay, save up save up! shall feed on carrot sticks from tomorrow okay.

I've been whining a lot lately, especially to the usuals.

Serbian, Stop being a whiney poo, you turd!




Its so quiet now that I can hear the clock tickling seconds by seconds.
Goodnight (:

I've heard this news quite awhile back that the world is ending 2012. I don't know if its true but if it is, there's no point studying and boys no point wasting 2yrs in NS!! let's quit school tomorrow, and guys, forget about NS!
anyway the news has really tingled my nerves. could this be real? :(

The past few days were really good food, i've never rlly participated in this great sale coz you know the stuff on sale are either left-on-the-shelves or the sizes are out. So for the past few days, i had been roaming around mango stores, saying of which, the bag i bought over hundred dollars is now on sale to double digit. :(
whatever, foo!
what have you babies snagged home from the great singapore sale? everybody's carrying mango now!

I'm in sleeping debt.

have a good weekends!

I cannot begin to describe how much i love them all. (inserts NEO at the side)
They had been there, to watch me laugh, watch me cry(eh but comes to it, i've never cried so..),
watch me curse and swear, and watch me feel stupid.
I had the best time with the best company so nothing is inexcusable.
When it comes to school, I'm only able to mutter a three syllable word : ''Surviving''.
Without them in class or school, I doubt I would even be able to survive,
let alone try to mutter any syllable.
i'm completely NOTHING without you people.
(:

xoxo,
S.

hot cup of milk
headphones on with french pronunciation exercises playing on repeated mode.
It's better off alone now, and i can't wait to get over tomorrow, over french class, over the day.

When things get a little tad bit too boring, it makes it a truck big meaningless to pen down any.
Holy shit, buy me some candies.

For now, I need to rush for a hot bath, reply emails, get my work done, finish one chapter of my book, listen to Estelle and Kayne West's American Boy, take a breather and go to bed.

goodnight earthlings :)

My 2 weeks vacation wheezed by so quickly, it was like a rapid ascent but with no decompression sickness.

The weekends passed by so quickly, i'm not even prepared for school at all! There's still 5-6 weeks of school before there's a one month or two month break, which I think it's not going to make any differences in me. I sound like I'm in a mental break, but not really because there were better things to do and beautiful people to be around with. (:

I saw the most ugliest Singaporeans during this term break, which was basically during the PC SHOW. I wouldn't want to mention it all over again but i didn't expect that totally. At that moment, I thought I was so cool to walk away. But to think of it now, I wondered why did I even bother to stoop down to her level? I could have easily shown her my middle finger, save my breath and walk away too. Even though that sounded really uncouth too but at least a powerful hand sign would have meant so much more. It equates to Anita Sarawak's trademark of Talk to my hand! but to think of it, she isn't even worthed any of my efforts to even extend my arms to ask her to talk to my hand.

Then again, i didn't have much fun this holiday. Happier days were when we basically shopped, went for movie dates with the lover girls and boys, laughed our ass off and enjoy each other's company along the way. Ultimate happiness was when i splurged on anything that i liked. Depressing days were when i argued with the boyfriend. Enough said, It's not always rainbows and butterflies, It's compromise that moves us along.

My cellphone's down again. (yes, AGAIN!) and this time round the old phone is not giving me any face, it refuses to work. So i'm with some pok pok phone that i found during the ransacking.
I bought my new laptop, and the old one will be passed on to my dearrrr sister after servicing :)
p/s: thanks dad!
Dad bought this new china-brand iphone? okay it's damn cool, and we watched channel 8 with the phone when we were caught in the jam. Who cares whether it's a cheeena brand or not? It's cheap and functional!

I got to be studious from tomorrow onwards because i can't afford to skip anymore classes. It means i can get debarred anytime! I think holidays are bad because I would spend a great amount of time having late nights busy doing almost nothing productive, only bitchy rambles on a chatlog. Then my body would start falling apart, I'll start falling sick and having heavy eyebags/dark eyerings. You'll hear me complain more.
I know i had been blogging a lot, but heck! because i know i won't be even touching this when school starts.
I know i'm going to dread french class this week. ):

okay bye bye people, i'm excited for school tomorrow because i know i'm going to see people whom i missed much much. (this includes laughing at Yiting's hair!) nye-aha!

i found this when i was packing the laptop!
hahaha, tak glammmm. big nostrils siol!
but you know what, i miss your little friends in your noseeeee, (heee!)

okay, i know i'm damn irritating. :P

hi babies, come to mama now.
(soooon, can't wait yo!)

my laptop is giving me a lot of problem, i can't use IE, IE blocked my ibank account, i can't do my report etc etc.
oh man!

If the world doesn't suck, we'll all fall :)

And today, I realized I get frustrated when I cannot get things done quick and good. I'll start throwing temper. To say, I belong to the modern society's obsession with doing things faster and better, and how things would take a toll on us. I guess, movement is challenging the cult of speed. The addiction to speed starts from the moment we wake up, and it starts from checking the time when we're awake. From that moment onwards, the clock calls the shot.
For example, when we fall behind work, we get a quicker internet connection. When the webpage we want to enter takes forever to appear, we start blaming the computer/the connection. If we have no time to read the novel we like, we do speed reading by reading the gist of the story. Too busy to cook, we'll just eat instant noodles or buy a microwave oven. Things should not and cannot be slowed down, but only sped up. But don't we all realize, everything takes time and they need slowness. Like how you can't expect a seed to blossom into a beautiful flower overnight.

My mind is always playing out why something went wrong yesterday and what could go wrong today and tomorrow. Right now, right now, right now. My mind would keep playing in a tape motion. But you know, we all shouldn't fret and get our brains fried. We should all be gentle on ourselves.
Yeah and my mind told me my laptop is dieing on me today. & it did.

i played on the curlers today.
& is that any ways for the hair to grow faster and thicker?!?!
*insert sheepish smile* some of your will know what i want to do right? :)

okay how does this feels?

I'm going off to feed my Larry&Harry, and then maybe pour some food for Merci.

I've got loads of rantings inside me. Wanna hear me rant like a bitch?
but then again...
Let's morph into gentler souls and not be so hard on, on ourselves, and on others.

goodnight!!

I was walking on the streets someday back with this group of gothic people and then again behind me, there's this group of young hip-hoppppers.
I think people are just blindlessly believing depression is linked to Gothic. Says who happy people can't be gothic?

People nowadays get their labels all mixed up, including sexuality. They label themselves with whatever sort of styles, oblivious to the fact that they're making themselves seen as laughing stocks. Just because you paint your nails black&wear eyeliner, you tell people, Hey dude, I'm Gothic so respect me. I would probably throw you eyeliner pencils and ask you to fuck yourself. Some donked on their skating shoes, and try balancing themslves on a skateboard, they'll tell you, Hey brother, I'm yer kinda sk8ter. 24/7! I would break the skateboard on his/her head. A number of them can rap like 50cents, wear netted caps, wear those oversized tees&baggy pants, walk with a bouncy style with their fingers crossed in the hip-hop style and hang a bling bling on their necks, they'll run to you saying, Yo! I'm hip-hop! I'll get Charlie Chaplin to dance in front of him/her. Some scream like fuck into the mikes, slam the drum during their jamming sessions, the boys say We're the punk rock. Excuse me, everyone can scream. I'll scream for them.

Why do you need styles to define yourself? Isn't that just following the style? I do wear eyeliner but not to the extend of proclaiming I'm Gothic. I don't know why style is it that I have but at least I don't go around, uncertain of my own style but telling people I'm gothic because I'm depressed; I'm a skater because I'm learning balancing on the skateboard; I'm emo-rock because I scream alot when I sing. See, it's just not right when you break your neck when you're trying to bboy because most of your friends are into bboying. It's not right to kiss a boy and say he's gonna be your husband. AM I RIGHT?

However, I'm not implying that you have no rights to dress the way you want yourself to look like or be but just don't try too hard. (:

Yesterday was kayaking in the hot sun and warm water and then saw me watching Get Smart. Kayak was awesome with the guys as company. Saw the kids in them despite their big TWO, splashing water at each other and having lorryloads of fun. I can't exactly recalled what i did last night but all i know was i finished another 3 chapters of my novel before i slpt. That would explained why i couldn't wake up this morning to meet Y.

Today was Funan mall and then roaming around bugis for a little while. It's been really a long while since i went there. After that was home and then for a last-minute supper with W and rest.

I need to study a little for the coming test but annoyingly my sister is beside me slamming on the keyboard playing her games.
mum just came in the room and asked when am i going to register for my btt! haa. she will give me the green light if she pass me the money, and i'm all READY to go!
I can't stand the way my sister defines me as one of those hopeless cases on the road, she will go,
"OMG, SIS YOU GOING TO DRIVE?!?!!!?! ARE YOU SURE?! YOU CAN'T EVEN PLAY A PROPER RACING GAME WITH ME, YOU GONNA DRIVE?! DRIVE A REAL CAR?!?! " (=.=)

there's a party at homeCLUB this sunday, but i've got school the next day!
how?

i is going to join Safra kayaking club next month
i is going to buy new laptop.
I have got this big blue back on the back :(
& i need to seek solace and rest my body now.

I can't believe i just finish watching Sex and the city all by myself.

Love is something everyone is still in search of every single day. When is it we gonna find it?
Labels, everyone loves it. At least most of us do. Do you?

But which label is the one that never goes out of fashion?

Awesome show.

how about this?

A play with those words, but the hidden meaning embedded so deep within. It took me awhile to understand the twist of words but Jesus Christ, it made a hell load of sense to me. It's often the petty arguments you indulged in with your other halves which always ended up with K fuckoff, whatever bye! And then when your other half calls back, you know you're going to win the argument and you're fucking happy about it but you faked this WHAT(inserts a very annoyed and sick tone) when you pick up the phone.

I hate myself sometimes, I have this repetitive mode set inside my body all the time. Each time somebody calls or greets me online, my first response would be WHAT!, as if saying a decent hello or anything proper would seep the fucking soul out of me. I can't believe how uncouth I am sometimes, I would go HAHAHAHA HELLO KNN!. Sometimes, I really humour myself. When would I shut up and start being nice and proper in my greeting.

I apologize for the lack of updates. Today saw me catching Incredible Hulk and roaming around amk for the longest time, and then "breathing" some fresh air with S in the evening before heading home and fell asleep on the couch like some sleeping beauty.

I've learnt, if one refuses, there's no point forcing.

I don't like couples fighting when they have no idea what they have. They cannot see the fact that they have companion and someone who loves them more than they do. They don't know how to treasure him/her until he's/she's gone. Be it love or lust, at least there's a recognition of something. My Romeo mislabels me as his Juliet because sometimes, I'm left to choke on my own emotions to a point of no redemption. Don't fight, don't let the feelings go to waste. (: thats what i constantly remind myself.

fat soon just called, and you got no idea how fucking happpy i am when i saw his incoming call, but hey you're not forgotten okay, and i did not go MIA.
NICHOLAS =] said: when i hear your voice, i was like over the moon sun and earth

i need a trim soon, i just settled the NLB's fine and got myself a new novel.

I'm going to kayak soon, finish my project, finish my french by tomorrow. (i doubt so)

pictorial fun for now!

we're the rockstar!

CALLING THE YCK`S! hiii gay boys!

goodnight!

I hate when i was being maligned. ):
I'm earning peanuts at the PC show. but still, it's the company that makes it fun and enjoyable. I have a lot of photos taken during work, upload soon okay.

Last day of work, last week of term break, last month before boyfriend's enlistment.

I'm desperate of sleep now, so another day.

P/S: Happy birthday buddy saw!

i've yet to give them a name.
definitely not larry tom dick jerry harry.

yet another day, supposedly to have tennis with Y, but due to unforseen circumstances, we stayed in and slpt longer. On the contrary, i went for badminton session with my sister, then back to running on the tracks, before going over to our favorite pet house in the night. (:

tomorrow's back to school for projects and hopefully movie after that.

this week gonna be pretty packed for me. how was yours?




i'm going to play UNO with my sister now. & did i mention my sister changed her name to Amber? (:
yes, Amber, her fortune teller told her to do so but i think she kinda hate it when people start calling her A-ber.

byebye.

hello Mr teddy, you have been the best companion ever.

My mom always remind us that having faith gets us through almost everything.
I'm afraid of having too much faith because sometimes faith fails me and I end up failing myself. I used to have faith in everything but recently I started losing faith because I'm so afraid of slowing losing my grip of the things I invested a lot of faith in.

Work over the weekends was fun, supper, supper, supper and celebrating ZY's birthday as well.

I think I'm stupid, I watched Norbit on my laptop alone and barked with laughter alone. Now I'm going to watch Mr Woodcock alone and laugh to my four walls.
I rest in for the day, shoved the phone and laptop aside till now, went for a quick run in the evening before heading over to the Pet House in the night to take a look at those tortoise and fishes.
I'm going to finish a few chapters of the R.digest and go to bed. And this would be the slowest, coldest and most mundane day spent with my family.

I was being asked the most absurd question recently.(i'm not going to tell you what)
I wanted to say I don't care but saying I don't care means I'm trying to run away. I go for the heart, not for the anatomy because a penis isn't necessary the greatest god's gift. Some guys use their penis(es) to talk, not their brains.

bye!

Yenfenn's birthday at Fish&Co.

(WTF YOU WANT ME TO DO? SHY LEHHH!)

DO-RE-MI! 18th and heights!
make a wish!

blow your candle with your might.

She loves broccoli, right?

Food was awesome, ambience was fantastik and the company was the ultimate.
& if you are thinking why she's holding a broccoli in her hand, thats thanks to me who got her one instead of her favorite lily! nye-hahah! i bet your 18th's celebration is better than before and probably more memorable!
p/s: please save keep the broccoli under your bed because it may bring you lucks in finding a HOT boyfriend. & how was the card i made for you? NICE RIGHT. hehehe! :)

Picture of the day:

we're all rich because of her!
we fined her for every grain of rice she left over,
reason because she's severely underweight and there's nothing to be proud of okay!
she finished the entire seafood platter for her, thats her biggest achievement for the month i guess.
CHEEEERS :D

I feel really fat now, because i think i've eaten too much than usual today.
I'm going to do some workout before i hit the sack.


lack of sleep and the obvious eyebags, but still let's welcome the holiday!

p/s again: HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY ANG ZHEN YAN! :)

The reason why i'm home before 6pm was partly because of the exhaustion within me, i couldn't stay awake during lessons, but oh i tell you, the call center lab practical was damn fun!

tgif tomorrow, the week just whizzed past like this.

Holiday's in the air. (:
I just finished watching "It's a Boy Girl Thing", it will be in the theater later in the month but i can't wait to catch it. Awesome show with two thumbs up.
Saying of which, I can't seem to keep those cash with me very well as it has all mostly gone to food or to the ultimate addictive online shopping. To top it up, i've caught too much movies this month.

And i'm supposed to be studying for my last paper tomorrow, but i couldn't sit still after half an hour, so HECK! i sucks at accounting, maybe i should try harder huh.

To Do`s List :
1) French presentation (omfg! critical)
2) BF/B-LAW/EFMA/MKT Project.
3) I need to revise/sleep.
4) Finish up 6 seasons of Sex and the City
5) The L word probably? (:
6) Tennis.
7) Kayak.
8) Ipod/Creative? (ohyes, i need one desperately to replace the old)
9) HAIRCUT.
10) Get a new novel.

this pretty sums up my term break. (:
p/s: don't laugh, (yes) i'm a southpark fan.

Oh and i just signed up for Nyp Swim Meet, ;)

Always be my baby
By David Cook

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die, no!

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my... my baby

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me (oooohhhh)
I'm part of you indefinitely (oooohhhh)
Girl don't you know you can't escape me (ooooohhhhhh)
Ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (and we will linger on)
Time cant erase a feeling this strong (ohhhh)
No way you're never gonna shake me (oh baby)
Ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby

know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be apart of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....

You'll always be apart of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

row row row your boat.

I went to kayak today, truckloads of fun okay! I'm going again during the term break to continue rowing, any takers in for the fun? (:

&
i want to run on the tracks tomorrow.

My current tired eyes which are going to shut like gates of hell; malfunctioning brains and sore fingers make it impossible to come up with something logical, and interesting of course. Suggest the best remedy of all, and that would be sleep.

Till things are better again, till i feel like talking it...
Goodnight.

The feeling of being expected too much or expecting alot out of others is always indestructible. All of this expectations run hard after you, and sometimes, you're able to fulfil those expectations but sometimes, you would not even meet the mark. It's pretty funny, this whole expectation cycle repeats itself all over again, like it doesn't gets tired of going rounds. You know, people around you expect a whole load of shit out of you and at the same time, you expect a whole load of shit out of people too. I'm sure, in a way or another, we all set expectations to achieve something out of a particular something/someone.

In school, we set expectations or you'd like to call it our target for our results or the certain CCA rank you'll want to achieve by a time. In work, we have our goal settings in order to excel and get a promotion.The list of expectations goes on depending on the roles.

Some people may work well with expectations while some may not. I live my life with not much of expectations but the last thing i will do is to allow people to bound me, and set me a list of expectations I have to fulfil.

Now, would life be a humdrum if there's no expectations?

School was fucked.

equation time!
but N says NO, I'M INCORRECT.

oh yeah thats the way.
(K.F is our secret code)

so much for making me feel fat, thanks ah pal!

I think our English is getting from bad to worse, partially thanks to the finance shortiee who "sal-bage" us.
(ha ha ha ha!)

Joey: Yenfenn tomorrow is go dental is it?
Serbian: yeah, she are go dental tomolo. So you wants me to waiting for you in the bus interchange? (-.-)

i can't believe i'm talking this way to her!

Sometimes you get caught. Caught up in moments, in the whirlwind of events. Caught unaware. It's just not you but the wrong place, wrong time, wrong company can really easily add up to giving people the wrong idea about yourself. And yet again the way things look drift away from the way things really are.

We have to make the best effort to love life and ourselves.. at most times.

I wish I could walk around with a big sign stuck somewhere on my body written HANDLE WITH CARE.
(bring me a pen and a cardboard now.)

As always,
XOXO
bring me gummies.

i is going to turn in now. (:

omfgfgfgggfgg, can i have a regular Java Chip Blended Coffee?


studying for law's a killa. what a bummer, what a bummerrrrrrrrrrrrrr (x10000).

HAIYOO HOLLY MOLLY LAA.